Monday, July 23, 2007

Half Awake

I laid my back flat on my bed so i could give my self a deep sigh, it's a great feeling to know that day was close to its end. I kept my self busy and thought of other things so i could forget what really bothers me. Fooling my self while whispering that I'll be fine. It's late at night and I forced myself to sleep. I grabbed a book, I read the lines but my mind was lost somewhere. I let every minute passed by and i hate seeing the clock with tickling sound. I wished my bedsheets could sway me through air while my pillow could sing me a lullaby. With my left arm leaned on my forehead i felt my upper eyelid got heavy, finally i felt asleep. This is what i wanted, at least have a moment to leave my conscious world and get numb. At that very minute i know it's time to give my mind a little rest.



Suddenly, a tear formed on the corner of my eyes, it was warm. Just like what i feel, it's bound to let go. The warm tears began to flow through my cheeks, it fell down as if trying to escape from what's burning inside. I thought i just turned numb and asleep but with the crystal tears that run through...i realized...i was still half awake...



5 comments:

karma lennon said...

Nice. I know exactly how that feels. That is me practically all the time...

polona said...

crying myself to sleep... it doesn't happen often but i know the feeling...
nice.

Reign said...

the whole day might be fun mingling with people but at the end of it when you're all alone you could hardly escape from what you really feel

thanks for passing by karma lennon and polona.

goatman said...

When I was lonely it was music that seemed to sooth. That, and realizing that your not the only one. But it feels you are the only one when cold space goes on forever and loses your soul in its endlessness.

Reign said...

The truth is i also tried to listen on my radio at that time but the solem music at night, the lyrics...it shoot me and that made me cry more (now i'm smiling). But right it makes you feel you're not alone, somehow you feel someone's trying to symphatize.

thanks goatman, i feel better now.