Sunday, November 30, 2008

The Blah-gger

As I perched on my tilted chair with my nape leaned on and my face looking upward, I was hoping that a painted ceiling could amuse me. Right where I was seated, it felt like I'm being grilled by dullness. I squinted to the right, there was an empty chair and to the left was a colleague, dozed and slumped to his arm, drooling. So one must experience solitude some time but not all the time. I needed to talk to anyone about anything in anyhow. It was a moment of excruciating boredom and I am excruciatingly bored.

Computer, that's the closest thing visible to me. Talk to a machine with gestures, what will I suppose to say? 0110011010011? Speak the binary language? That must be nice but not when someone sees you. Unless you want them to think that you have left your sanity somewhere else. But yeah, talk to a computer, what are keyboards for? I opened a browser and my fingers sprightly on each keys, I typed on the address . I really don't know much about the site except the fact that you could create you own page and post anything you want. I just thought that must be cool.

I signed up, chose the template and there! A less ornate page no one would have an interest to view. It's a good thing I never told anyone that once, I dreamed to be a web designer or else after seeing my blog page, someone might sneer at me and ask where did I get the nerve to wish of becoming one. There's a link that says "comments" at the bottom, I know it was there for a reason but I guess I won't make use of it. I told myself that I would remove that option, but how? A primitive one still navigating through the settings. I forgot to remove it though, I prioritized on what would be my font, its size and whether I'll make it bold or italic. Yes, I took it seriously but end up with a funny crap page. I chuckled furtively on my seat, making fun of my boring piece.

The title. What would be the title? I thought of a nice one I could muster. "Iriz's Blog" would be nice but the 'Z' and 'S' slur together, I tried to pronounce it and there's a little effort separating 'z' and 's'. Try to pronounce it yourself so you would know (come on just try it). It sounds like a bee turning to a snake . I know I don't make sense that much but I must come up with a title that depicts one. Just like how Fish Eye got her title, I had learned that a fish eye is a kind of camera lens and relatively logical for posting about photography (am I right?). And so I pondered for my blog's sake.

I could say that how a person thinks and feels clearly define who he or she is. How you behave is based on the reasoning or arbitrary choices. Let's not define what's good from what's not, it doesn't matter, the point is, it's YOU. So you say "It's me" and you give them two choices, " take it or leave it". That's what I thought trying to come up with a good title, not sure if I'm right or wrong but one thing is certain, I got a title for my blog. That was the birth of Mind and Emotion.

Have you ever heard of an introvert blogger? Yes, someone who writes and yet she was so shy of letting someone else read it and so she reads her post alone. Introvert blogger, yes, that's me. I was writing on my desk doing my second post when a friend of mine emerged from the back. "What's that? Is that your blog?" she asked. I covered the monitor screen by my two hands and told her it was nothing. For a moment, I forgot that every browser has a minimize button that you can click on if by any chance you want to hide the active page. Way more convenient than covering the screen by your hands or feet. She forcibly removed my hand as if swatting a mosquito away. She gave me no choice and after going through it, "Why are you hiding it where in fact you have to let others read it?!". Her tone was somewhat threatening or she seemed in need of sedatives. She talked too much and too fast, I wasn't able to grasp some of her words but If I'll put it into brevity, I guess she meant like this, "Iriz,don't you see it? A blog is designed in an interactive format and you have to make sense of it. Now go and do some blog roll!". As I tried to absorb her words of wisdom, I thought to concede is the best way to shush her. "Really? Okay...", I said just to get away from it but I took her advice anyways.

I got my first comment! "Would you believe that?", I told myself. Someone just landed on my page and Finding Eben was the first one who found me.

Never thought I could write until I did. Perhaps one may doubt my words from what I say but not from what I write, I may not tell it all (Sorry, I don't want you to read a post that will take you two days to finish) but what was told must be undoubtedly real and from within.

Roaming around the blogosphere, I have seen a bigger world. From boredom it became my solace, from solace it became my home. A home with a door left ajar, you don't need to knock, you just come in. No competition 'coz one is solely unique from the other. You meet great people, not based on how they look but who they are. Here, you just dare to be you, and either through words or photos,you let your private mind transpire. They may care what you say but who cares how you say it? You just go on and bubble over. Incessant conversation through comments , it's like sitting with friends in a circle and everyone has their turn to say anything with buoyancy. We may have disparities but no opinion or comment is WRONG, 'coz here, we do it the WRITE way.

Okay, all I really want to say is...IT'S NICE TO BE BACK!


An ILLuS|On said...

welcome back iriz..yes you were definitely being missed: )

iriz said...

it's been a while an illusion.
and i really missed a lot around the blogosphere.

nice to have you back as well and thanks for the hugs. ;)

Ps said...

Oh I agree with you so much about Blogging!
The thing is it opens your world so much.
I've made some GREAT friends through my blog and it has really changed my life for the better.

Good luck with your Iriz--your friend is absolutely right.(Glad she told you to go public)


iriz said...

Hi Ps!

Yeah, she's really right (i'm thinking how's she doing right now). I'm back to the track and once again, we'll talk about everything under the sun.

Right, Cheers!

gillboard said...

Oh hey, you're back!!! Welcome back iriz!!!

An ILLuS|On said... does amazes me that how come you missed blogosphere at the first place..i mean its just another place where there are so many anonymous people ranting about their lives..random people & their lives do fascinate us right?

goatman said...

Exactly, and I could not have said it better. Bloggers are a group of planetary inhabitants leaving words, pictures and thoughts for each other. I miss it when I am away because it seems I now owe those who have left thoughts and words at my posts,my future ideas.
The only thing which could make it better would be a universal translator which could relate anything I posted into the language of whoever was reading it. Maybe later . . .

I am glad you are back.

NESSA said...

This was fun.

I will never forget how excited I was the first time someone commented. I got all tinglly.

iriz said...

Elow! thanks dear.I'm still catching up!Nice to have you here!

You could say that, it's just another place where random people rants. But as to why i miss the blogosphere despite of that fact? It's simply because...I'm one of them. LOL.

iriz said...

Hmmm...universal translator...that must be great, in the future, why not?

Yes, I'm also glad to be back and have you here again. ;)

Good thing it reminds you of that tinglly feeling. I'm sure they also do.

Thanks for the comment! ;)

Keshi said...

WB Iriz! :)

I was on a lil break too...and it feels so nice to be bak.

And I agree with u on wut u said abt Blogging. Its liberating and priceless!


iriz said...

hello keshi!

the feeling's mutual then. WB for both of us. Right, blogging is priceless. ;)

karma lennon said...

I am SO glad to see you back!! Big Hugs!! I love blogging. I started because my friend begged me too and just fell in love, in more ways than one. I have friends I've met through Blogging that are now my best friends. I have a sister in Canada now who I talk to online all the time and can't wait to go visit. A dear friend in New York now who I am SO excited to meet. So many people who are so a part of my world and my life. :)

iriz said...

hi karma lennon!

miss you too! that was so nice to know. imagine what blogging can do. indeed we are a circle of friends here. nice to have you back.


Lawstude said...

hello. first of all, i love the song in the background (all i need is u).

you are very right, the world of blogging indeed is startling at first because we fear that how will we fare with all great bloggers around, but at the end of the day, it is all about self expression - we blog not to please others but just to please ourselves. enjoy.

iriz said...

yeah, i know you will really love that, remember the song angels brought me here? your fave, another song fr guy sebastian,who,i guess, we both like.

"we blog not to please others but just to please ourselves"

right lawstude, and as we please ourselves , pleasing others follows.

nice to have you back! ;)

Erick said...

ang pagbabalik! :)

Marja said...

Oh dear Iriz so nice to have you back. great post and what a person thinks defines who she is and that's why I like coming here.
Have a nice day

iriz said...

Kamusta?! kamusta?!
Natutuwa ako't narito ka uli! ;) Marami na naman tayong pag-uusapan, hehe.

Elow! Same reason I have why I alway see your page. Got the real you! Thanks for being here!;)

polona said...

it's nice to have you back. and your writing definitely deserves to be read by others.

as for my blog name (thaks for a shout out), the lens name was on my mind but there was more. see, my astrological sign is pices (hence fish), and at the time i set up the blog i used a photo of my eye as the avatar, so the title followed quite naturally. i still don't own a fish eye lens, though ;)

(¯`•._.•[Raaji]•._.•´¯) said...

very well said :-)
Good to have you back :-)

Meghna said...

I love ya iriz...i lvoe ur palce...and I missed ya...t.ruly and deeply missed ya....glad to ahve ya bck dear :P

J said...

It is indeed nice to see you back. Lol, and by mistake I clicked on 'Finding Eben's ' blog and was wondering why you change the title. Blunder of blunders!!

Anyways, time for another update no?

iriz said...

Hello! Thanks for dropping once again. Good to have you guys back. ;)

For a girl like you who's sweet and smart, no one would hate you, NOT ME. The feeling's mutual.

I'm so glad you're here. ;)

Haha. Oh dear, i miss you so much! Yeah, Finding Eben is one of my precious friends.He's my first diamond.

That's okay, and that's what i like about you you can still laugh in spite of blunders.LOL.

Nice to have you back,soon for update! ;)

iriz said...


Sorry, i missed you there.

LOL, now I know more!So the lens is on your mind but it's more than that. A fish and an eye, makes sense. Now that's a trivia.Guess what? we're both pices!

Thanks for that, glad to have you back! ;)

The Dutchess said...

Hello,thank you for your nice comment on my blog,now let me compliment you on your's!:)Great place you have here..nice music too
Greets from holland.

Sri said...

Happy reunion to the blog world again...keep posting!

iriz said...

Hi,thanks for being here, Now Holland and Philippines are just one click away.

Take care.

Yeah, feels great to be back,miss the old bloggers and love to meet new bloggers.

Thanks for dropping by.

Eben said...

finally...nahanap din kita friend. parang dapat yata Finding Iriz ang title ng blog mo. hahaha.

but seriously friend, na-miss kita pati na rin ang blog mo *pahid ng luha sa kaliwang mata* LOL

iriz said...

Finding Iriz, haha.
Pasencia na po... Sori naman...

Miss din kita. O...towel, este panyo...*punas ng luha sa kaliwang mata mo* hehe.